Thoughts: It’s about time…

To really observe how one is handling and exploring the perspective of time is quite interesting. I believe that every life changing event gives another perspective of time. Whether you go to University, become a parent, or starting a relationship…. Your former perception of time is done, over, schluss. Hence, since I became a parent, it almost feels that I ‘wasted’ my time a lot when I was young.

Although… that may sound quite negative, in other words I found it a massive luxury in my ‘ former’  single, kids free, student life. How I could easily spend my weekend only partying or trying to see the whole season of 24 or Soprano’s, moving from the couch to the fridge and back….Or just being able to be very occupied to attend EVERY festival in summer and book at least 8 times a year a flight for a trip wherever without thinking. What a life…. ‘sigh.’

Currently it is like this: all the ideas that come to mind and ambitions I have, and then the smack back to reality. Kids that wake up way to early (bye bye yoga routine) or suddenly reduce or extend their nap time now that you thought you had a rhythm. It is definitely no complaint, but it is the law of economics where time management becomes a very scarce product.

Chronos vs. Kairos

img_0748Looking at the phases of my life, it feels like I have lived in different timezones. Not per definition during different ages, more different phases. I love the Greek philosophy about Chronos and Kairos. Chronos governed linear, chronological time. Kairos meaning the indeterminate moment that is right for something to occur. While Chronos is quantitative, Kairos has a qualitative, permanent nature. The term kairos is also used to denote “the appointed time”, “the crucial time”. Chronos is usually portrayed as an old, wise man with a long, grey beard, similar to Father Time. Whilst Kairos be portraited as the extended version of Mother Nature of time?

With all that is going on in my life at this moment I do feel that I have to be very aware of Chronos and Kairos. Father time is just ticking and ticking, while there are a lot of qualitative decisions to be made.

While I am currently not even checking out ONE festival and booking unlimited trips
seems ages away, change is possible. As I am organizing to be settled more and more, in the mean time there are still choices to be made that will have crucial influences on my life. I feel Chronos and Kairos more then ever nowadays. But that means also crucial time will pass by and will open up some air again, closing a phase and maybe even be able to “waste” some time again.

Thoughts: How to be a fit and strong mom?

With Chloé almost 5 months, I notice times are changing. The development of Chloé is really visible now and she is obviously getting stronger. Last week, I witnessed her first real turn from back to belly and this week she’s already moving a lot more.

LittleluxlionMy own physical condition is also a lot better since I gave birth. I feel a lot of motivation to get stronger and fitter. Mentally and physically I really need to gain a little bit of “me” back after two years of non-stop pregnancies and breastfeeding.

My goal will be to gain strength, flexibilty and fitness. I felt strong, fit and flexible just before my first pregnancy. Went to the gym five days a week for different exercises. Played tennis, was active in yoga and boxing.

LittleluxlionWith two under two, being at a gym five days a week doens’t seem realistic. However there should be more into it than I am doing now.

No need to lose any pregnancy kilos. I actually never understood the motivation behind “losing weight”. Losing sounds so depressing. You lose your wallet, you lose hair on your head or lose a beloved one in your life. So what’s the fun of losing weight? It won’t make me realise my goals.


This summer I will definitely orientate myself for yoga or pilates places in Luxemburg. A closer look to Chloé’s back to belly turn shows me babys have a ‘winning’ spirit. No is not an answer. They achieve their goals with curiousity and a good balance between perseverance and relaxation. I will follow her spirit. Let’s make it happen and win myself back.



In between

It’s a very odd time capsule that I feel myself being sucked into. It’s like the movie “Back to the Future.” I just settled in my new future, but I’m still influenced by my past and travelling back and forth to the future in a Seat Leon instead of a Delorean.

It’s living in between countries, in between jobs, in between a house we own, in between my body recovering from pregnancy, or at least I hope that it is temporary. In between a creche for my kids, in between my true friends from the Netherlands and building up true friendship(s) in Luxembourg.

Have you ever felt that in between?

What does one do to let that feeling  go away? You can see this from several points of view. Glass half full/half empty kind of thing. In between can mean all options are open and you can experience enormous freedom. On the otherhand ‘all options’ are  a lot. So you might as well feel a bit squized into nomansland as well.

Statue of Willem I in Luxembourg

Statue of Willem I in The  Netherlands
With travelling “back in time” to the Netherlands this week, I will set the first steps with closing the deal of my sold house and some final appointments for my kids.

The next week I should put on my self lacing Nikes, get in the Seat Deleorean and gain some energy and decisiveness like thunder and lighting to help me get “back” into the future.

On the other hand, maybe I must not expect to be in a fully settled future at once. Maybe some things will occur with the energy of thunder and lightning. But maybe a lot of things just need time to pass by instead of heading there at once. Only time will tell.